lance saint ash

beautifully shy

Jesus,

how do I feel tonight ?

You know I’m not alright

they hurt me so many times today

and I am not OK

I opened my heart

gave up my pride

they mocked what I love

then raped me inside

it hurts when I laugh

and I don’t want to smile

and I am so angry I wish I weren’t alive

Jesus,

how do I feel tonight ?

You know I’m not alright

they hurt me so many times today

and I am not OK

I turned to my friends

to try to feel whole

but men who are boys

can’t care for my soul

I’m tired of jokes

and it isn’t “all good”

oh God ! I would love to find another one like me

Jesus,

how do I feel tonight ?

You know I’m not alright

they hurt me so many times today

and I am not OK

I want to be strong

to know who I am

I want to be liked

and feel like a man

You’re tearing me down

and I’m dying inside

but when You are done I hope I’m beautifully shy

Jesus,

how do I feel tonight ?

You know I’m not alright

they hurt me so many times today

and I am not OK

© 2002 lance saint ash